The whole issue of her illness and death had centered around this little infant. Her fifth pregnancy had been a stillborn disaster at the fifth month and my old college surgeon who was our family doctor wanted to tie off her tubes. He said Patty you’ve got four beautiful children, now we’ve got a terrible deformed, let’s quit while we’re ahead and Patty told him that child is going to be born in this world if it’s the last thing I ever do. This is thin ice to skate on that that child be born in the world if it’s the last thing I ever do. This is thin ice to sake on. And she deliberately got pregnant and had carried it all the way through. In the fifth month they found she had this cancer and wanted to abort the child, saying it would give her some modicum of chance, otherwise she had no chance at all. She said you will not abort that child. It’s going to be born into this world. So that was the central focus of her, her last year on life all centered on that child and making the child well.
Well? It had no connection between the cerebral system up here and the body. It was a basket case. This finally did her in, particularly the medical interactions that were involved in all this. So then the issue was that after her death, and she certainly did die in this exalted state of excitement over Jesus and the gold lights and so on, after that, her passion over that child simply brought her back several times.
Here we’re dealing simply with the fact. This was an event I know about, this is within my knowing, my personal phenomenal logical experience. I can’t deny it. I’d be a fool to. On the other hand, how much of a great universal thing we base it on that? We can’t, because that would be arrogance on our part. So what happens after death, to my way of thinking, is an open-ended question mark. Could we close that question mark? Probably the whole show would stop. That is part of this great enigma, the great journey into the unknown. That simply intensifies the journey into the unknown and what it’s all about.
But to then turn around and say this indicates reincarnation is to my way of thinking a very weak argument. The universe is being created by the spawning of whole new universes all the time, whole new planetary solar systems, galaxies, it’s a new, new, new ever. The spawning of new life all the time, it’s just boiling up life, life seeking life, like enjoying life, life celebrating itself, etc., etc. Every birth into the world is love seeking its own expression all over again. At each birth nature, whatever that is, asks now will be able to move into the higher realms this time or are we going to end up having to defend ourselves again? This is that whole aspect that we uncovered over the last ten years.
And of course the issue is to fall back on a mechanical process such as reincarnation has never made any sense to me. Now we have all sorts of cases in which children can give verbatim accounts of some individual who only recently died or was a kinsmen or something else. Ian Stevens has collected hundreds of those cases. In an infinite universe where new creatures are coming into the world in a great kind of a boiling up of the created pot there will be many cases in which a previous structure might inhabit one of these new structures. Patty might have moved into the psychic structure of that infant for all we know. That would not be reincarnation as such.
The East has made a mechanical process out of reincarnation. If you butcher that cow in this life and you people want a cow in the next life, utterly ridiculous nonsense. And even the theories of reincarnation have at their hearts some serious flaws. Even Rudolph Steiner and he gets into a very elaborate theory of reincarnation, but underneath it is seems to be all these are flawed by the simple fact that they are one of the possibilities and who is deny that any of these infinite possibilities might manifest in any of the infinite expressions it brings about.